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Today your intensity is being focused on yourself, and you are going through a time of penetrating reflection. Finally you are becoming honest with yourself about what it is you truly want, and where you are willing to put your much sought after passion.
--Scorpio Horoscope 10-19-10
Ahh its been a long while... but I guess Im in the habit right now of avoiding this blog, and avoiding myself all together really. My life has been 100 percent feeling like its about everyone, and everything else lately. Which is by choice, for the most part.... but I am very ready for some me time. Got through some events, and now its time to think about what I want and need. Which is EVERYTHING!!! :)
I am ashamed out how badly I have been treating my body. A regular dumpster lately. TERRIBLE. Just terrible. My drinking has been heavy, and my herb smoking is effecting my breathing. I eat whatever, whenever, and my gut is totally reflecting that. I'm a mess. A real mess. I'm not ashamed to say I need a good kick in the ass. I dreamt last night that someone was saying how I was too fat for a dress and squeezed myself into it! I laughed today when I woke up and thought about it, but clearly my body image is not where I want it to be if I am dreaming in that way.
So... my mind feels a bit clearer today. My ambitions are high. I can feel a change in the air...the planets.
Its all about harnessing that energy for me. I need to keep this moment close, so I can feed on it, and ride it through tougher times near.
I would like to start a little detox from now, until my Birthday November 8th (and so on if its feeling good). But what that means for me is cutting out drinking as completely as possible, avoiding foods that I know are not nourishing and could even be hurting me, Cutting smoking down to out, and spending specific time meditating, and doing yoga DAILY.
If I can get myself to do it, I want to integrate going to bed early, and waking up early. I get so down on myself for wanting to get up early, but not getting up when the alarm goes off. Though, I had an epiphany the other day... OH GEE, MAYBE YOU'LL WAKE UP EARLIER IF YOU GO TO BED EARLIER! haha So, that will be a challenge.
Slowly breaking away from the unhealthy routines my husband and I have fallen into. Separating myself and creating personal time is necessary for my happiness and health.
I just have to create the reality.
I just recently created my own yoga space at home which I am super excited about. The family room has been a room of many uses, currently the computer is located there and the rest is empty. Now its emptiness is my joy. Ive utilized a couple old full length closet door mirrors we had out in the garage, which are just perfect! I couldn't believe I had never thought about it before. Soon, we are going to replace the low ceiling fan so my long monkey arms don't whack into it during asana. With the computer being there I can utilize the internet for yoga routines, music, and guided meditation which is nice. I have a great window and the fire place hearth works as an awesome alter!!
Cant wait to get that ceiling fan out! Maybe this weekend. That reminds me, its also time to take that air conditioner out too.
BIKRAM HOT YOGA--
Recently I got a coupon for 20 Hot yoga classes for 20 dollars! Epic. Regularly$ 240.00 !
I am really excited about this but also nervous~~ I have never tried hot yoga, and for the most part I have heard not so good things about it. I believe that is why it kind of scares me.
What is Bikram Yoga?
Here is how the coupon studio explains it::
</span></span><span style="font-weight: bold;font-family:georgia;font-size:100%;" ><span style="color: rgb(41, 34, 34);font-size:14px;" >The mission of Bikram Hot Yoga Vancouver is to help instill in our students a feeling of total health and well being through fun and energetic Bikram Yoga classes.
Bikram Hot Yoga Vancouver will provide quality instruction of Bikram’s yoga series, a sequence of 26 postures done in a heated room (105 degrees with 40% humidity). This series is both an excellent preventive activity as well as a system that can reduce many symptoms of chronic ailments and diseases. Bikram method hatha yoga series is designed to scientifically warm, and then stretch and realign, muscles, ligaments and tendons, in the order in which they should be stretched.
The series systematically moves fresh oxygenated blood to one hundred percent of the body, each organ and cell, restoring all systems to healthy working order just as nature intended. Proper weight, muscle tone, vibrant good health and a sense of well-being automatically follow.
The class is designed for all levels, whether a first time student or an advanced practitioner. In time the student learns how to focus the mind and breathe. This allows them to practice deeper while remaining calm and balanced. As the student deepens this relationship they begin to realize the meaning of yoga -- a union of the body, mind and spirit.
The benefits of yoga go beyond the physical aspect. Along with a toned body comes much more. Just to name a few, yoga has been proven to:
Reduce stress, the #1 disease-causing agent
Remove symptoms of disease and chronic pain
Aid in sleep
Reduce cortisol levels
Lower blood pressure
Alleviate allergies, asthma
Help with smoking cessation
Lower heart rate
Slow the aging process
Boost your immune system
</span><span style="color: rgb(41, 34, 34);font-size:14px;" >Come and see for yourself!
</span></span><span style="font-size:100%;"><span id="app42438882966_love_horoscope" style="display: block;">So this sounds promising! I'm just afraid that I wont be able to handle it. That the heat will do me in (as I am NOT AT ALL and never have been a fan of heat)! Im not a quitter, but it sucks to stick out like a sore out of shape thumb. haha
So anyhoo, you have to use your 20 classes within 60 days if when you start, and so I am trying to plan around really getting my full uses, and being realistic. Its on the other side of town from where I live, and the classes I can go to are at 6:30 MON, TUES, THUR, FRI... and they require you to come early (first come first serve), so I really need to be on the ball coming strait from work. There are also weekend classes, which is cool.
I will let everyone know how it goes when I finally take my first class!
Im hoping to take advantage of another deal I saw recently at a yoga/pilates studio thats right up the street from me. Its 5 classes for 25 bucks, which is super reasonable!! ( I think its for first time students only, so lucky me) And they just started a wednesday early morning 6:30 class!! So I can actually go get my yoga on in the morning before work and still have time to come home, get ready, and get to work.
So we'll see! Today is pay day.
I wish I could leave work right now and head to an outdoor Yoga class. Its so nice out, and so dead here!!
Well Im hoping everyone is well, and you are pushing hard for the things you want out of life!
"If you can find a path with no obstacles, it probably doesn't lead anywhere." - Frank A.